TWO QUESTIONS>>>

While spending time a with a friend in ATL, I suddenly realized that I was asking myself 2 different questions as one. I think it is important to separate them...

Who am I?

Who do I want to be?

I am...

-broken

-ruined

-hurt

-hurtful

-a mess

-emotional

- sad

- lonely

But the beautiful thing about this life and my recent "Get Out of Jail Free Card" is that I can be who I want to be. Also that who I am is SO much more than just what I feel I am. Even though I don't feel this way most of the time I am also...

-brave

-strong

-resourceful

-beautiful

-intelligent

-creative

-loving

My therapist informed me last night that I have possessed all of these qualities this whole time, even though I don't feel like it. Six months ago and today.

While visiting Casey in ATL we visited his new campus, Savannah College of Art and Design, I couldn't help but to be insanely jealous and at the same time, so happy for him. This was my dream school once upon a time in high school, but for so long I felt guilty and wrong for wanting the education I got. The Former would connivence me to drop out every semester... I would wait until the first week of classes was over, panic, and then re- enroll. Education is valuable to me. While walking around SCAD my mind was blown and I realized nothing was holding me back! I could have that experience if I wanted it... no one is stopping me, except me.

A terrible but treasurable cell phone pic of Case and I.