I have been crumpled.

This morning I woke up and did the things I normally do, put on a pot of water for the coffee press, brush my teeth, make my bed, clean up a bit and then start working on the computer. Shortly there after I received a call to run errands for a mountain lady. I need the cash so I headed out the door and into the pouring rain. Once in my car I realized there was a giant red heart on my window... in spray paint!

bah... if enough things weren't cosmetically wrong with my car... (its wrecked down the side, dented in the back and has been crashed in the front.... all not my fault... and my car is only 3 years old. boo)

Upon further investigation I found a peace sign on the license plate and what appears to be a mushroom on the hatch back. As the day went on I hit a few more bumps, one being a rather awful conversation with the Former, where he clarified how little he cared for or respected me.

I felt simply deflated, overwhelmed and defeated. I had no more to give, no more push left, I could do nothing but weep in my car. After a good pep talk from my friend I finished the errands and headed home. I stumbled in the door, with my arms full of stuff and found a big brown box... on it a note that read...

After such a crummy day I wasn't even exited at first... then I thought it might be chocolate and that would be really nice. I opened it to find with dream camera and two lenses.

I fell backwards into the wall and began to cry. To scream. To scream and cry. I lost all control of my breathing and my heart fell out of my butt. I just cried and cried and cried.

Then I realized it wasn't real and that I needed to talk to someone to know that it was really happening, I called chelsey, my dad, my mom, my sister... no answer.... it was in fact fake!!! Then I called heidi... it was real. Then I called Katelynd and she told me someone had dropped it off at the house just an hour before!!!

It was really real.

Thank you, who ever you are, I do not deserve this, and I am not sure why you chose to spend your money on me. Please know that you have changed my life, in ways I can not explain, my heart is broken and humbled, I am so grateful for your kindness.

Also if you want it back I will understand.