All things will be made new >>> even PROM>

The last six months have been unreal. However the last month or so has been even completely different. I am no longer overwhelmed with intense emotion at all times. There are moments, on some days, that I can breathe. I often feel very very confused about life, the ins and outs of my days and how or what to think about anything.

How ever there are things about me that have NOT changed. One is my love for themed parties. The former and I hosted PROM at our house ever year. The first one started off when a girl lived with us who was home schooled and had never been to a prom so we threw one! It was so much fun! So from then on every spring we hosted the Bilbrey PROM! Complete with a keg, beer pong, dancing, and a photo booth. Four years in a row, but I can only find pictures from two.

Prom 2009

This year spring came around and I just couldn't get my act together enough to host a prom. It was sad to watch spring turn to summer and let a tradition die, but last night I had the joy of participating in a Second Chance PROM, to raise money for United Way to help victims of the tornados that hit our area back in April. Even though it wasn't "Bilbrey PROM", there was spiked punch, dancing, poofy dresses, and my photo booth.

Prom 2010

Its odd to me that memories are beginning to become layered. There are experiences I have had and places I have been only with the Former. As time passes I have those same experiences and go to those places on my own and in those moments all I can think of is him. I hate him that he ruined something beautiful, my heart hurts like I have never felt pain before and my nose burns. With a few deep breathes I can collect myself and make new memories.

Life is going on.

Prom 2011

Rather I like it or not, the world just keeps spinning. The next time I go to or host a prom, I won't only have to compare it "Bilbrey PROM", my prom memories have been layered and made new.

The Former may have ruined and broken a lot of things, but he no longer has that power in my life. I want to choose to keep on going. To move forward and allow things to be made new.

Thank you to divas in my life, for the love and support it takes to keep dancing!